Alone and totally left by myself. Smoke. Drink. Bar. Magpariwara. Name it, and I can really do those things because of how I was and is treated in the family.
But thank goodness I never dared to get trapped and be like what those teens and persons do given the same loose treatment I used to have and am still having. Free as a bird, I could have had explored my youth and get involved in all sorts of worldly pleasures around me.
But I did not grab the opportunity. I did not left myself entangled with those stuff that only satisfy my physical needs and wants. Instead, I tried to resist. And each time I stumbled, I get up.
I admit it, there are a lot of experiences in the past that bother me from moving on. These experiences are my steppingstones in order to get up again. And again- until I will finally win the race.
I am not a perfect man because I still commit mistakes and I had those weird and naughty experiences. Yes, I do not feel any anxiety or dismay for I know that those experiences, the ones I used to delve with in the past- however bad others may think about what I was before, are essential for me to grow up and learn the lessons of life that are not available within the theories discussed in the four walls of the classroom.
What's more important, at least in my humble opinion, is that I enjoyed my past-really!, had fully accepted what I experienced before, and above all- I am looking forward for what is in the future.
But thank goodness I never dared to get trapped and be like what those teens and persons do given the same loose treatment I used to have and am still having. Free as a bird, I could have had explored my youth and get involved in all sorts of worldly pleasures around me.
But I did not grab the opportunity. I did not left myself entangled with those stuff that only satisfy my physical needs and wants. Instead, I tried to resist. And each time I stumbled, I get up.
I admit it, there are a lot of experiences in the past that bother me from moving on. These experiences are my steppingstones in order to get up again. And again- until I will finally win the race.
I am not a perfect man because I still commit mistakes and I had those weird and naughty experiences. Yes, I do not feel any anxiety or dismay for I know that those experiences, the ones I used to delve with in the past- however bad others may think about what I was before, are essential for me to grow up and learn the lessons of life that are not available within the theories discussed in the four walls of the classroom.
What's more important, at least in my humble opinion, is that I enjoyed my past-really!, had fully accepted what I experienced before, and above all- I am looking forward for what is in the future.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
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ReplyDeletenice oneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. nakakainspire.. keep it up bro
ReplyDeleteKeep it up, author!
ReplyDeletesometimes it's hard to resist temptations in life; however, if you just have the strength, courage, and powers to overcome all those... it's never impossible that in the near future, you'll pursue for your life with flying colors, and you'll surely know more about life here on earth. what matters most is that you must always keep your faith, and make it as a guidance in your daily life so that you'll know what's best, not only for you, but also for everything around you. . . :)
ReplyDeletethank you so much.. that was a wisdom-filled thoughts from you. God bless you!
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